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Thursday, February 28, 2013

Lead me not into temptation

I truly believe that I am married to the most wonderful man in the world.  I love our love story and our life and the support that he gives me.  And during this contest having his support has meant more to me than I could ever express to him.

Temptation.  The other night I had a long and hard workout at the gym.  I came home and there was my dear husband sitting in his recliner with a bowl of vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup.  He had that look of guilt on his face.  When I asked him about his expression, he said he felt bad eating ice cream in front of me when he knew that I couldn't have it.

Here's what I'm learning...  I know what vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup tastes like.  And yes, I could have had some if I really wanted it.  But I didn't really want it.  I haven't really wanted it or other desserts since starting the contest.  His thinking that I "couldn't" have it is something that we have discussed.  There will be a day when I will have the ice cream.  That day is not today nor tomorrow nor any day in the next 10 weeks plus two days.  This is MY choice to not have the extra sweets and junk food and just stick with the food as it is given to me and the snacks that I know are not empty calories.

In almost four weeks, I have not had a soda, a candy bar, ice cream, candy, cake, sushi, a buffet, or other fast food.  I've been around it all.  I've noticed the difference in my body, particularly in the clothes I wear.  It's also nice to have others see the difference too.  There is food that I know I'll be excited to try again because I remember how good it all tasted.

There are days that I struggle when people at work are bringing pans of cakes and brownies and cookies.  No one is going to know if I have just one of something, right?  But I will know.  As tempting as it all is, it's just not worth it to me right now.

I feel like the tone of this post isn't exactly the happiest, but I do have some exciting news.  My team was picked in the lottery and we will be running the Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon on June 22nd.  If you remember, this race will be on my 35th birthday.  I'm super excited to run this race!  This will be Race #6 for this year.

I also have done a ton of reading at the gym this week.  I finished up the Between the Lines books by Tammara Webber and I've started reading Truth (Consequences #2) by Aleatha Romig.  Great books!  I've also been listening to more Maroon 5 since the concert is on Monday.  I can't wait!  Adam Levine is so dreamy... :)  Maybe my next post will include the concert.

Until next time!

Friday, February 22, 2013

Race 1 of 2013

I'm finally posting about this first race.

Now, I'll be honest. I didn't run outside in the snow and cold since it was January.  No way was I going to do that.  I did the virtual race inside on the treadmill.  Time wasn't important to me as I'm trying to build up my mileage again.  I'm anxious to get back outside and run the lakes and paths.  Today I was 90 seconds from running my first sub40 5K on a treadmill!!

I stopped it at this point because I was so excited to reach the 40 min mark. Then I didn't snap a pic at the 3.1 mile mark, but you can do the math.  I know I would have made the mark, but I did slow down a bit to talk to a friend and I couldn't talk and run at the pace I was going. It was worth it though since it was a good convo. :)

When I complete race #2, I promise that I will have lots more detail about it. :)  The Get Lucky 7K is a course that I really like.  I'm hoping to get a time around an hour, which I think is totally doable!  Other racing news, during the week of February 25th my team will find out if we got into the lottery for the Garry Bjorklund Half Marathon in Duluth on my birthday.  Fingers crossed!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Tired does not equal hungry

I'm tired these days. Waking up and leaving the house by 5am to get to the gym is something new for me and I'm easing into it.  It makes for a really long day.  Really long.

Tuesday was a 5am gym day and when I got home from work, I thought I was hungry.  It was dinnertime and I had eaten a rather early lunch with no snack in the afternoon.  So as I start making dinner for the kids, they grabbed a bag of chips that we normally wouldn't have in the house.  I really wanted a handful of chips. Did I NEED them?  Absolutely not, but man they sounded really good... That greasy, salty bbq flavor that turns your fingers a reddish orangey color that you have to lick off your fingers. I didn't have any, and instead made my dinner. I knew I was more than tired and still getting used to being up by 5am. I was rightfully tired, but I wasn't starving.  Tired does not equal hungry.  I had to repeat that to myself.

Saying no to unhealthy snacks outside of my calories is hard, but it's not a huge struggle. I know there will be days where I feel differently. My kids don't quite get that I'm consistently eating a different meal than they are.  The other day the question was why can't I have anything from the restaurant we stopped at.  They've seen me on the commercial so they know that I'm trying something.  Hopefully they will notice the changes soon and really understand what I'm doing.  My coworkers are trying to not push the treats issue either. Sure I want a piece of cake, but I also don't want to derail what I've already begun. There will be more cake in the future.  I love good cake, especially ice cream cake! :)

I'm getting better at exploring the reasons why I think I want to eat. The boredom seems to be more apparent on the weekends and I try to keep us busy to avoid that.  These meals seem to keep me pretty full which is a great thing when I would graze some days on what we kept in the house.

Learning about food triggers is such an important step for me and really for anyone!  But it's such a process when you're also in the mindset that "one won't hurt anything" or "I'll make it up."  There's always a good excuse, right?

I'm going to keep up the morning workouts as much as I can fit in and keep reminding myself that tired does not equal hungry.  These days it's less about trying to be Supermom and getting to bed when I know I am tired.

What I read this week at the gym was Consequences by Aleatha Romig.  You can find my review on Goodreads.  I've been listening to a lot of Maroon 5 and Pink to get ready for the concerts I'm going to next month.  Can't wait to buy a smaller sized outfit for that! :)

Saturday, February 16, 2013

What a difference: Week 2 down

The other day I was a bit frustrated. I weighed myself knowing a week hadn't passed yet. I had also started the 2000 calories plan with Seattle Sutton's Healthy Eating and thought I could make my own decisions on not eating the whole thing. I was wrong. The scale didn't move. Luckily it didn't move up.  Pity party anyone?

I had to tell myself I was being silly. The scale isn't the only measure of success. Yes in this contest the person who loses the highest percentage is the winner, but they will have to work for it too.  I was not going to let it ruin my day.  Luckily I have awesome supportive friends who are prepared to kick me in the butt and give me pep talks when I need them. 

I remembered this picture of myself taken a while ago when I was about to start my journey. I knew I was overweight and this picture was proof. So I made a "before and after" collage, as a lot of people do, to remind me how far I've come.

I am a work in progress.  This collage reminds me of that.  Right now, I am fortunate to have Seattle Sutton's meals and to not have to think and plan.  With the higher calories, I had to do that.  I had to decide how much to not eat because eating 2000 calories, I am not going to lose weight.  Maybe others can be successful on that plan, but it was too hard for me.

Yes, I lost eight pounds the first week and I felt great!  And I *know* that eight pounds is a big loss for anyone.  I know this.  But when you lose so much weight, you want it to keep going.  And I had to remind myself that my body might not want to lose the weight just yet.  I'm still learning. 

Monday when I pick up my meals, I'll be back to the 1200 calorie plan which worked for me the first week. I'm excited to start that again and keep up the workouts and lose more weight.  Stay tuned...

Thursday, February 14, 2013

I'm a Slim Down Challenge Contestant!

***Disclaimer: I am not compensated for my blogging experience during this contest.  Everything I choose to write is my own experience.***

Some super exciting news!  It was officially announced on February 4th, that I am one of ten contestants in the Seattle Sutton's Healthy Eating Slim Down Challenge.  I've been meaning to blog about all this for some time, but life happens, family emergencies happen, and we do what we have to do.

First question I seem to get asked is: How?  Well, I entered.  As simple as that.  The contest was no secret.  It was advertised on their Facebook page as well as their main website.  Along with the basic questions, I had to write a little bit about myself as to why I wanted them to choose me, what was my story and submit a picture of myself.  Pretty easy, right?

After I sent in my entry, I ended up getting a phone call about 2 or 3 weeks before the start.  It was from Brandi who interviewed me and told me a bit more about the contest.  I then had to wait until the week before the contest start for another phone call.  I was really really hoping for it to work out!  And it did.  I got the phone call, but couldn't tell anyone publicly on social media.

The morning of the challenge kickoff were met at a local tv studio.  That was pretty exciting of course.  We had a meeting, met the other contestants, had our "Before" pictures taken, our starting weights, and some blood work.  Oh and a brief interview on camera that would be used during the commercials.  I was a little nervous and I talk with my hands when I am.  We'll see how that works out. LOL!

After all this, we had to wait even longer during the day to tell everyone publicly (i.e., on Facebook and Twitter) that we had been chosen.  Immediately people were wishing me luck and congratulating me!  You can check out contestant information here.

The contest is 14 weeks long.  We are eating the meals that Seattle Sutton's Healthy Eating makes.  We do not pay for the meals.  We do have weigh-ins about once a month and we will also have radio and tv ads.  The person who loses the highest percentage of body weight is the winner.

Next question I usually get: How's the food?  In all honesty, it's DELICIOUS! I was already making a lot of healthier choices so much of it was no big surprise to me.  I didn't have to get used to a new flavor for the most part.  This is REAL food!  It's all portioned out for me, and I'm definitely finding out that portions were my biggest struggle. As much as I work out in the gym, I guess I was also eating too much for weight loss. (But I have lost 3.5% body fat since joining the gym.)  When I say real food, I pick up the meals on Mondays and Fridays afternoons.  Nothing is frozen!  I get fresh fruits!  And you know how quickly that can spoil.

I know there are tons of more questions out there, and I am happy to answer them the best that I can.

One final thing I will say... 14 weeks is NOT a long time when you are on a weight loss/healthiness journey.  I know this.  I also know that the weight I do lose during this contest, is not going to be ALL the weight that I NEED to and want to lose.  I will still need to do work afterwards and I'm committed to that.  I'm so grateful for this opportunity!  I can't say that enough!  But this contest, it's just another path along the way towards my healthier life.  And it's definitely already jumpstarted a weight loss for me.  I lost eight pounds the first week!  I know I won't have that kind of loss every week, but being consistent in the 100's now has been an awesome feeling.

And the books I read this week: I received an ARC of Beautiful Bastard by Christina Lauren. I also read Taking Chances by Molly McAdams. I ugly cried starting at 56% until about 89% I swear.  I loved the book, but I can't put myself through that kind of emotion again.  My playlist this week included Fu-Shnickens, Missy Elliott, Eminem, and One Direction.  Quite the mix!

Until next time... Be well!